It's Snowing and December is Almost Here!!!!

Hey everyone! Hope you're all doing well. It's been a busy weekend and I'm still recovering from a sinus infection. The boys both had hockey and Mathieu also had a soccer tournament at school today. They played five games (indoor games - so its not as long as a regular game; but still) and won the finals. Mathieu, the team goalie, actually scored the last goal of the tournament. Now the coach owes him lunch at McDonalds. Poor guy, he has no idea that Mat can at for $20 at McDs.

I can't believe there are only 24 shopping days left. I had started with a bang... But haven't really done much since early November. Maybe the snow that's presently falling will help put everyone in a more Xmasy mood.

This coming Wednesday will mark my 15th wedding anniversary and the anniversary of Tony's diagnosis - 4 years ago. I've already made plan for a sitter and am going out to a Beattles night at a local restaurant bar with some friends. I didn't think it was a good idea to stay home that night. Better to be surrounded with friends and noise. I'll let you know how it goes.

Well, that's it for now. Please keep in touch.

And, take good care!

Renée

Feeling like a chicken with its head "cut off"

Tonight Mathieu's hockey team played a brilliant hockey game. I so enjoy watching my boys play; in that sense I guess I'm lucky (otherwise it would make for long games). Tomorrow I'll be doing double duty; work, meet Mat's teachers, appointment with my psy, go order dinner for the boys, pick up Mat's football equipment and drop it off, meet Rich's teachers, then (hopefully) dinner. I know it must be weird me listing all of this, but it makes me feel better... I read and say, no! I'm not crazy... that's a lot of stuff to do!

I've begun my Xmas shopping. But, you know what, I think the early you start, the more you buy... and the more you spend! So much for trying to be organized. I just can't believe how fast the Holidays are approaching. Its a bit scary!! I'm not sure why; I guess I just remember the catatonic state I was in last year and panic.

Well, my mom's coming for a visit this weekend. It should be nice. I think Mathieu enjoys having people visit - especially when he can talk them into giving him money. I think I've created a monster.

Should my friend Sylvie read this, "J'pense à toi".

That's it for now...

Take good care!

Renée

Hello Again!

Sorry I haven't posted in so long. Richard is the one who told me I should update my blog. He's so sensible that one... He certainly doesn't get that from me.

The boys' football season has come to an end and with it comes a bit of reprieve for me. I no longer have to drive them each to 2 or 3 practices a week or attend games that took up both Saturday and Sunday afternoon. We only have hockey for now. Don't get me wrong; the boys really enjoyed their football season and so it wasn't even a question of doing it or not... Its just nice to get a bit more time for the regular stuff - cooking, groceries, housecleaning, laundry. Gosh, I never thought I ever say anything like that. Oh well... I have had to readjust since Tony passed away. He was such a great help around the house. But I feel that things are getting better; I don't feel quite as overwhelmed as I did just a few months ago. I'm sure Rich will be pleased. He's so much like his dad in that he loves everything to be in its place. You gotta love him. Mathieu and I on the other hand, did not inherit the "tidy gene". Poor Rich.

The boys and I will be travelling to Belfast to see Tony's family in December. Rich and Mat are very much looking forward to it - as am I. I think it will bring things "full circle" for me in terms of grieving. Its a big step... Going back to his beginning. Some days I think it will be wonderful, and other days I'm scare that it will be too sad. I guess there is no sense in worrying about it - whatever happens is going to happen and worrying ahead of time won't change a thing! Sorry - I'm getting phylosophical.

I've been trying to get back to the gym so that I can look and feel my best for the Holidays. Its a struggle, but I'm determined. Only 25 lbs to go... Ouch! One day at a time. I'm back at work and have started training for a new position which will allow me to work part-time (3.5 days a week). That's about all I can handle right at this time.

Well, that's it for now.

Take good care!

Renée