Sunday, July 8, 2007

As days turn into nights and back into days...

As more and more days turn into night and back into days, it is slowly sinking in that Tony is not coming back. His physical absence is leaving quite a gap and I can only think of it for very short periods at a time; otherwise I would be useless for my boys... And, they need me. I probably need them more, but, let's just say for now that we need each other.

All the visitors have come and gone but the cards keep arriving. It is so nice that so many people care enough to let us know that they care - in whatever way...

Over the next little while, the boys and I will try to keep busy and possibly try to find some interesting "make work projects". Keeping focused on something specific and manual helps.

For those of you who worried about me because, as I said, I was on "automatic pilot" throughout the visitation and memorial service, please don't worry and remember that, in a strange way, I have been mourning for a long time. It will be a long process, I'm afraid; and a personal one.

That's it for now. Take good care!



Anonymous said...

Dear Renee,
Thanks for letting us know how you, Richard and Mathieu are getting on. We think about you and the boys every day .
Lots of love,
Anne & Brian XXX

Anonymous said...

You are in my prayers always....may God wrap you in his arms and give you strength to carry on.

Sandee said...

Love you much

linda said...

Hi Renee,

I think it's a good thing for you to continue to post. You are never very far from our thoughts. We love you.


Anonymous said...

Linda is right - you should keep posting. Not just for us - your friends and family who love you but who hesitate to disturb you - but for yourself. You need to keep the lines open and express yourself. It is painful. It is lonely. But you have many people who love you and the boys and want to keep in touch. Maybe it is easier sometimes to write than to say...

Still a friend,

Anonymous said...

Allo cousine,

On pense à vous.

Brigitte, Charles, Jean-Daniel et Camille

Anonymous said...

Dear Renee,
You are in my thoughts. I check the Blog every day hoping to have some news and praying that things are getting a little easier for you and the boys.