Well, I allowed myself 24 h of self-pity. Now we're done! Mathieu went to school late this morning; after I fed him bacon and eggs. I met with my trainer and am determined to become a "skinny bi#$%". By the way she was helping me stretch, apparently, she is also convinced that I will become a pretzel...
After the gym, I met with my friend Linda and we went for a walk by the lake. Our walk was quite brisk as it was very windy. All of this was very therapeutic. There's jut something about water and the sky... I ended the afternoon with a bit of shopping therapy (I'm really gonna have to stop that) and a visit to my therapist who, thankfully, makes me feel almost normal. Apparently, I am not insane or too neurotic. Well, that's good news. Isn't it? Especially for those boys of mine.
My friend Sandee includes something that she is thankful for in everyone of her blog entries. I think its always good to keep things in perspective and take the good with the bad. But, when things are difficult it is particularly helpful to stop and remember and be thankful for what we do have or have had.
So, today I am thankful for having known true love, trust, selflessness, devotion, happiness, optimism, laughter and hope. I lived and felt all of these things because I was married to a wonderful man. Tony, wherever you are, please know that I will always love you and I will always be thankful to you for giving me two wonderful boys and for making me a better person. Rest in peace... You certainly deserve it.
That's all for now.
Goodnight! and take good care.
P.S. Richard played his first basketball of the season today and they won 91 to 33. BRAVO!